Clarity

I have always wanted to kind of be the perfect teenage girl. I have always tried to make the right decisions ALL the time. say the right things. think the right things. do everything perfectly. please everyone! But in the process, I have screwed myself over. In the process I have made many wrong decisions. Im starting to have more and more of a tough time being who you made me to be God. God, im getting confused and I need your help. Please give me clarity on what you want me to do. Give me clarity on my life and what i need to do. Help me to clear away all the clutter away from my eyes to help me see more clearly God.

Persistence

I need help with following things through...I promised myself I would try to read a little bit of the bible everyday until I finished it all. I did well for a while....and then stopped. I was in poetry for a while...and now I havent written one in such a long time. I have started 3 BOOKS!...and gotten really far into them...then stopped. I used to draw all the time...and now i havent even doodled in such a long time. God help me to be true to myself and help me to find myself again. Help me to find my happiness again. Help me to use my talents that you have given me. I just want to feel myself again...to breathe again Help me to do that God.
Love,
Your suffocating daughter

Image

I'm told over and over again that I am fine the way I am. You made me like this and I should be happy. But God, im not happy at all. For years I have always struggled with the way I looked and God I have asked for your help over and over again. The only time I was happy with my weight was when I stopped eating for a few months. You know what im talking about. But God I am really trying hard not to go down that road again. Im tired of coming to tears because of it. So i ask, please help me to see the beauty that you put in me. Help me to see the beauty that everyone else sees. I am begging you because this is tearing me down and I dont know what else to do. I am screaming out for help.
Love,
Your struggling daughter

Happiness

The past 2 days me and my boyfriend have not had a fight. Everything is well and I really pray it continues. Its usually 2 or 3 days then we have another fight. I really dont want that to happen! God I ask that you work in my relationship and help me to know if this is the relationship that you want me to have. In church, when they teach about marriage and a healthy relationship, they say "endurance, endurance, endurance!", "Stick with your partner and work it out!" but how much are we supposed to "endure" before we realize theres just no love. How much is a girl in a abusive relationship suppose to endure before she ends up in the hospital? I may be taking the wrong view on this Lord, but please give me clarification.
Love,
Your daughter in love

Good morning!

Today is a beautiful day Lord! Thank you! Help me to be productive and to use this day how YOU would want me to use it. Work through me today so I do not waste this beautiful gift of life that you have given me.
Love,
Your eager daughter

Strength

In a time I don't have anything to worry about, I really need strength. Strength in myself, strength in my actions, and strength in my faith. God I ask that you strengthen my soul and help me to endure the complications that arise in my mind. I ask you for strength against temptations and help me to be the person that you want me to be.
Love,
Your daughter that needs your assurance and strength