Clarity

I have always wanted to kind of be the perfect teenage girl. I have always tried to make the right decisions ALL the time. say the right things. think the right things. do everything perfectly. please everyone! But in the process, I have screwed myself over. In the process I have made many wrong decisions. Im starting to have more and more of a tough time being who you made me to be God. God, im getting confused and I need your help. Please give me clarity on what you want me to do. Give me clarity on my life and what i need to do. Help me to clear away all the clutter away from my eyes to help me see more clearly God.

Persistence

I need help with following things through...I promised myself I would try to read a little bit of the bible everyday until I finished it all. I did well for a while....and then stopped. I was in poetry for a while...and now I havent written one in such a long time. I have started 3 BOOKS!...and gotten really far into them...then stopped. I used to draw all the time...and now i havent even doodled in such a long time. God help me to be true to myself and help me to find myself again. Help me to find my happiness again. Help me to use my talents that you have given me. I just want to feel myself again...to breathe again Help me to do that God.
Love,
Your suffocating daughter